Christina Brandon

Writer | Researcher

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I love cooking vegetables!

I have a weird, or at least atypical, diet for an American. I’m a pescatarian who loves the hell out of bread and pasta, but I do not possess a sweet tooth. I oversalt things on purpose. I have an aversion to condiments in general and white condiments (and sauces) specifically. I’ve never been into sandwiches and your typical Midwestern picnic fare (e.g. egg salad) grosses me out. 

Instead, I just eat a lot of vegetables and bread and cheese. Aside from not eating land animals, I don’t have a “diet” like Keto or Paleo or any of that. I make loads of veggie soups, tomato salad with some bread and cheese or kale sauteed with cannellini beans on toast are go-tos, occasionally sardines on toast. That’s what I like.

A few months back, around the time when toilet paper and flour disappeared from store shelves, I freaked out and decided that a grocery store was the place with the higest risk for me to contract the coronavirus and therefore, should be avoided as much as possible.

I used to go multiple times a week, but only wanted to go once every 2-3 weeks. With vegetables that backbone of most meals, that plan could only work because of a CSA box. There’s a couple businesses around Chicago that deliver produce, but I didn’t know that signing up for a weekly delivery of whatever random fruit and veg they happened to have that week (I could not choose or subsitute anything) would change my approach to food. 

I used to shop, as I suspect many of us planner-types did, by recipe, plotted out a week in advance. I knew I wanted to make a certain soup or I wanted to try this new recipe from Bon Appetite so I would go to Whole Foods on Sunday and diligently buy the onions and garlic and spinach and diced tomatoes and vegetable broth or whatever. And then once Wednesday rolled around, I would grab the spinach and get to work. I might swing by the store one or two more times during the week to pick up fresh fish or a baguette.

Creating shopping lists that way are pointless now. I have no idea what produce, the stars of my meals, I’m going to get until the weekly email—if I even catch it. Besides, I go to the grocery store to get the pasta and rice and whatever else goes into dinner once every 2+ weeks and trying to plan that many meals in advance makes my brain hurt. My one-week plan nowadays is half-assed. So instead, grocery store trips are all about restocking the essentials (pasta, olive oil, eggs, parmesan cheese, chocolate, coffee, etc) so I can cobble together a meal without much planning. 

This only works though, because of my weekly produce delivery. And I love it. Opening a box of fresh produce gives me such childlike glee.

“Look at all these green beans!”

“More lemons, yes!” 

“Oh my god we got an EGGPLANT!!”

Instead of planning by recipe, I plan around when the food is going to rot. My grocery store avoidance has turned out to be stellar motivation for using up all the vegetables. The eggplant was already really ripe when it fell into my eager hands so I knew to figure out a recipe for it first (grill it!). That tomato getting a little moldy? Cut off the modly bit and the rest is still good! (And it really was!). 

I’m also experimenting with bizarre recipes or just doing things I wouldn’t have normally done. I’ve blistered cucumbers and served them with peaches and nectarines. I hardboiled eggs, and I loathe hard boiled eggs. Their sulfur smell is one of the most disgusting things ever to waft up my nostrils. I’d rather inhale farts. And they feel like eyeballs once they’ve been peeled. But still, I made a version of a potato salad that required hard boiled eggs mashed into little pieces, and damn those little pieces were good when tossed with roasted potatoes, celery, and onions, and topped with the celery salt I made myself. 

I’ve also shaken some routines like the quick scrambled eggs in favor of pancakes or French toast for breakfast. And I’ve found the (energy? mental space?) to make focaccia which is crazy simple but requires dough to rest for long intervals. Not something I was gonna try to plan out back in January! And I completed some firsts: I made homemade sweet potato fries and learned to steam an artichoke.

This approach has been working for me, I think, because I’d been prepared without realizing it. I already owned a few cookbooks devoted to produce, if not vegetables specifically. I’d had a Bon Appetite subscription and am just generally the kind of person that loves to eat and think about food.   

I’m OK with preparing most food at home. Needing to figure out what to make quickly for lunch during the work week is not my favorite (cheese and an apple!) but I’m not yet sick of all this cooking. Maybe it’s because I always enjoyed cooking and now there’s space and time to do it more, and to challenge myself with new ingredients. I’m also highly motivated by a desire to minimize risk and contact with the outside world. What I eat is something I can control and feel safe doing. Outside my apartment, that’s not the case.  

If feels weird to say given the pandemic and unemployment rate jumping, but I’ve never eaten better, both in terms of health and in terms of limiting food waste. Certain aspects of food prep still suck. I do not like peeling sweet potatoes and carrots! And washing lettuce is a pain. But on the other side of all this work is a good meal. I always enjoyed that but nowadays I think I need it more than ever.

Cook your veggies! 

Simple, easy-to-make and good recipes (of mostly vegetables). Abra Berens’ cookbook Ruffage has been my source for the weirdest things (blistered cumcumbers!).

Pasta with fresh tomatos, either with shrimp or without. Steamed artichokes with a garlic lemon butter dipping sauce. Picked onionsGrilled eggplantCauliflower steaksSweet potato fries.

And because you spent so many loving hours in the kitchen, treat yourself to a lemon margarita. Drink it outside if you can, with a bowl of tortilla chips and salsa.

Outside is scary, but I still miss my friends

The Illinois shelter-in-place order has officially been extended until the end of May. I’m relieved by this because there was no way in hell I was going back to my office May 1. It’s obviously not safe. Coronavirus cases are still growing, though (thankfully) slowing. And yet another month of these same walls?

Honestly, a great big part of me is pretty OK with nesting in one place for a long stretch. After six weeks I’ve finally figured out some new routines so I feel more stable than I did back in March. I self-entertain real well. No kids. A dog that gets me outside and a partner who I can bug when I need human contact. Plus, I don’t have to mentally gear myself up to leave the house - I have to stay home! And I just feel better, hunkered in my fortress that is a second floor apartment. Outside is scary.

I did a much lighter, self-imposed version of this the last couple months I lived in China, when people staring at me and trying to talk to me when I just wanted to chill in the park was too much. Let me be anonymous, please! I only left the apartment to teach classes or get food. But it’s one thing hunkering down because you want to and another because you have to.

And this having to… it is tough. Again, I see how tiny my world is. No restaurants, no shops, no shows. Rare interactions with strangers. I only talk to people I somehow know. That is crazy to think about. Am I forgetting how to be around other humans?! I’m a muddle of mixed feelings.

Working from home. I love working from home. I get to wear leggings. All. The. Time. Six weeks without a commute has been amazing. There’s no rushing out the door, no standing in line in the cold and wind and traffic to get on a public bus. No dealing with the nutty people or the obnoxious assholes who either opt to take a conference call or decide 8:30 a.m. is a good time for a casual chat about what happened at the bar last weekend.

I miss friends and family. We text or do video calls, which is great and I want to have that connection with them. Playing games together online has been wonderful. But there’s always a layer of awkwardness even among good friends in a group chat scenario. I worry about them. How much can you really see when you’re looking through a screen?

I miss my coworkers. My job is pretty solitary in that it requires long stretches of solo time to craft research plans or analyze data. But now that means the people I saw regularly because we shared the same general space, I rarely see. The friendships that were slowly starting to form from a casual chat in the kitchen have been put on hold.

Video calls. I’m finally getting more comfortable with being on camera, but at the same time I’m so over it. This is being “on” in a weirder way than it is in person. And it can be so draining. On the other hand, I love these glimpses into other peoples’ lives, like cats traipsing over a keyboard or kids playing with dinosaurs. A coworker I met via Hangouts apologized for being sweaty because he just spent 30 minutes wailing on a punching bag. Best one-on-one meeting ever.

Travel. As much as I like my nest, I do want to travel and see more of the world. Spring vacation was postponed. And I’m not sure when I can visit family.

Nesting: There’s a handful of things around the house that have been annoying the crap out of me that I’m finally tackling because I see them all the damn time: the grubby shower curtain, the haphazard collection of spices, poorly organized book shelves. But of course the spice rack I finally purchased has a shipping delay until September!

Produce delivery. Opening a box of fresh produce is like Christmas. I was squealing and skipping around the kitchen as I pulled out pineapple! Tomatoes! Broccoli! Grapefruit! Peppers! And more!

Grocery shopping. Despite how much I love colorful fruits and vegetables, I do not miss going to the grocery store regularly. I didn’t mind it before, but now I have to psyche myself up, as I put my mask and gloves on. My battle gear. And low-level worry the next couple weeks if I picked up the virus my one time going into a public place. I do miss getting fresh-baked baguettes regularly.

Cooking. I’ve more patience/interest/mental capacity to figure out what to do with the weird produce that comes in the CSA boxes: ramps (wtf are these!), sweet potatoes, grits. I had deliberately stopped CSA boxes in the past because I was chucking too much veg I didn’t understand how to prepare. Now, I dig into overlooked chapters in cookbooks for recipes. Nothing goes to waste! Must avoid stores as long as possible!

I hope you’re all able to stay safe and healthy and are finding your own grooves, whatever they maybe. And if you can spare a few dollars, donate to help people who are struggling during the pandemic.

Donate, help, pitch in, do something

Shit is crazy right now because of COVID-19 and a lot of people are struggling because they’re out of work, their work load has been reduced, kids are at home ALL THE TIME, or they're just isolated. Here’s a few things you can do, if you can spare a few bucks or just time.

Consider giving directly to those in need. Activists in Chicago have started a list that connects financially secure folks with those in need of a boost to help pay for groceries, medicine, bills, etc. Info for other states listed here.

The Coronavirus Relief Fund distributes donations to a variety of organizations that provide food, healthcare services, and support to those affected by the pandemic.

Donate masks to healthcare professionals who need them.

Order takeout or delivery from local restaurants. Donate to your local food bank.

Brighten someone’s day by sending postcards to nursing homes and other care communities.

Call/text/message friends and family, even if it’s just to say “hi.”

Getting used to a new normal

My coworkers decided to make Friday “Formal Friday.” Because of COVID-19, we’re under a shelter-in-place order in Chicago, and are all bunked in our homes wearing PJs or sweats (on the bottoms at least - can’t see that part on video calls) every other day. Why not get dolled up for the biweekly breakfast meeting?

Me, I’m like “no thanks.” This is probably very revealing of my core character: a lazy non-joiner. I’ve been just fine in my leggings and grubby sweaters, with no make-up and somewhat clean hair.

But really this is a nice thing my coworkers are doing. In the two weeks since my company switched to a work-from-home policy, the whole office (< 50 people) has been creative in finding ways to connect while we’re all remote. We do shout outs with drinks at the end of the day Friday, kids and pets welcome; in honor of National Puppy Day, we posted a stream of cute pooches to Slack all day long; and there’s weekly trivia just for fun.

These kinds of things have definitely made the transition to working from home easier, though my daily rhythm hasn’t shifted too dramatically. As a child-free introvert, I feel like I’ve been training for quarantine my entire life. The challenge so far has been being home with the dog all day, who has a propensity to explode into a shrill bark if he hears even a whisper in the hallway.

But obviously something has shifted. Even that I have a job that I can do remotely feels like a great privilege as the unemployment rate is spiking. Even those of us who are still working face uncertainty about our jobs and paying our bills.

My emotions oscillate wildly, between relief that I’m safe and healthy, worry for friends and family who still must leave their homes for work, annoyance that I don’t have as much new free time as I hoped under quarantine, general anxiety about the pandemic (no doubt egged on by all the links in the Covid-Convo Slack channel at work) and guilt for feeling stressed because I’m at home all day with a gallon of bleach, toilet paper, and enough canned beans to last for days. 

A few months ago, I had made a year plan with quarterly goals and everything. That’s been obliterated into insignificance. My partner and I were planning a vacation to Joshua Tree at the end of March which we’ve obviously had to postpone. I was excited to attend a tech and design conference that isn’t happening. My planner is loaded with white-out. And I don’t even care that much. Those plans seem irrelevant now that I don’t know when it’ll be safe to hug my friends or see coworkers IRL. My brain is incapable of thinking beyond next week. It’s occupied by stuff like:

  • Should I still try to find hand sanitizer or Clorox wipes if 95% of the time I’m only touching surfaces in my own home (the other 5% is accidentally touching my face).

  • Talking myself off the ledge that it’s The Virus(!) if I happen to cough.

  • Should I finally pluck my eyebrows?

  • I hope my moisturizer doesn’t run out soon.

  • How can I avoid going to the grocery store as long as possible?

  • I didn’t buy enough coffee, did I? 

Despite all this, I’m feeling a general burst of optimism now, in this moment. What I really want to hope is that amidst all this uncertainty and emotional twirling, there will be some silver lining. That this blow-up to our routines will show us something, will illuminate something we couldn’t have seen otherwise, even a small thing.

I know this optimism is fueled in part because I’m financially OK now and healthy and not surrounded by tiny humans who need my attention. But I’m seeing how my coworkers are looking for ways to connect even though we’re all remote, how friends too are checking in with each other and finding ways to do things we would normally do together even when we’re apart, how we’re stepping in to support local businesses and others in need. That counts for something.


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